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BSG rambling: Kara, Anders, and stability.
This will contain spoilers up through 'Scar'. It's not particularly coherent, but it is stuff I've been thinking about a lot.
First of all, despite her rebel persona, Kara in some ways, craves stability.
That's actually something I've wanted to say for a while. And Kara may not admit it to herself, at all, but on some level? She wants things stable. She wants a reality that has some sort of order to it (true rebels would have shot Cain without orders, they would be drunk and disorderly and never stop, and they wouldn't worry that Adama wouldn't love them anymore).
Seriously. What do we know about Zak? Very little. But Kara wanted him happy, and lied to make it happen. And that blew up in her face.
As atonement, she took the post with Adama, and she's been clinging to him like the family she didn't have ever since. When he betrays her about Earth, yep, she rebels. And then she comes back instead of staying on Caprica (and it's Anders' fault, btw, but I'm getting to that).
The fleet was at status quo for a while, and unless they're planning on retconning that Kara was running around frakking people and misbehaving, I'm pretty certain she didn't do much that was rebellious.
Tigh. Let's go back to the mini for a moment. Galactica's being turned into a museum, Kara is going to have to leave the one place she feels vaguely at home, and Tigh's being an ass. She doesn't care about her career, she doesn't care about her prospects, it's far easier to punch him and get thrown in the brig. The brig has to be somewhat familiar, as Lee notes that he's used to seeing her there -- here's a question, did she crave stability more after everything went to hell?
Back to recent history. Kara comes back, and all is A-OK. Dad still loves her, bratty brother still loves her, Mom's about to die, but still loves her.
Then Pegasus shows up, and Cain transfers her and Lee. And, yeah, Kara's a brat, but once Cain shows she values guts, Kara might actually kind of like it there. Aside from that, Pegasus appears to have a far more rigid military structure. Something Kara can rebel against and flail at.
And a bombshell. Dad wants her to kill the new bitch in town, someone Kara has a bit of respect for.
But she'll do it. Because she's loyal and Dad asked her.
Fast forward. Cain is dead, and Kara who kind of respected her (she did survive) now also has the knowledge that she could have been the one pulling the trigger. Hence, her speech at the funeral.
And then we have the pilots, as a whole. They're wild, they're crazy, they're all obnoxious. Kara just takes it one step further. She always has to be the best, y'know?
Sidenote: when is Kara not brought low by love? And I'm not talking just romantic, either. She cries when Adama hates her, she cries when he loves her... Romantically, she cries over Zak (once?). Non, she cries in the hospital during the Farm when hopped up on drugs. And here, she's breaking, and she's crying over Anders. But, er, not very much. (she cried in Kobol) -- okay, so, Kara actually cries.
This is a tangent. Kara lives life. She goes with her emotions, she feels things, and it's all there, right on the surface. (Except for anger, as someone pointed out, once). She's happy, she's sad, she's not ashamed to display what she feels. She's crying, she's raging, she's laughing, she's falling down drunk (Colonial Day? And how drunk was she when she fucked Baltar?).
Kara is all surface.
Anyway. Back to Kara and stability.
Anders. He's a decent guy, doesn't seem all that complicated, and he can keep up with her in the sack. He doesn't have a hundred little connections to her life that twist her up. And he's honest with her (as far as I can tell). And, scariest of all, he believes in her. He thinks she will succeed in her mission, hell, he thought so much of it he hid the arrow until she could leave.
That belief? It's a heady thing, especially when she doesn't know if Dad will forgive her (hey, if he doesn't, she has Samuel to fall back on).
So she makes her promise. In the heat of the moment--when she's clinging to reality, because she refuses to think about the farm--she promises to come back for him. Maybe even loves him a little (or a lot, after all, this is Kara, who grabs life by the horns and rides until she gets thrown, then gets back on and does it again). Certainly, she's infatuated with him.
She and Samuel did have an almost instant attraction, and he never pulled punches (they were both bruised after pyramid). He doesn't want her to be anything but herself, and he doesn't want her because she's Fleet, or a viper jockey, or whatever. He just wants Kara.
Right. Kara and stability.
Pegasus = rigid military control. Something Kara could rebel against. Cain respected her. Cain dead...
Cain dead leaves them all right back where they were: waiting for the Cylons to appear, stuck in a never-ending holding pattern.
It's enough to drive a sane person to drink.
Kara has always had the "drunken brawler" label, I think. It was an assumption we made long ago, and it's kind of weird to see it realized in full color on our screens. Although, she was a hell of a lot more controlled. No fighting, and she only beat herself up.
BTW? Hungover, Kara is still one HELL of a pilot.
I liked the idea that Kara knew the pilots who had died. Knew them all by callsign if not name. I think it's one of the things I've seen in fic a few times, actually. The litany of the dead. And it's one of the things that would make her a good CAG. It's also a detriment, as that guilt she's feeling for not being there to save them all might one day see her dead.
Hrm. Think that's everything I wanted to ramble on about.
First of all, despite her rebel persona, Kara in some ways, craves stability.
That's actually something I've wanted to say for a while. And Kara may not admit it to herself, at all, but on some level? She wants things stable. She wants a reality that has some sort of order to it (true rebels would have shot Cain without orders, they would be drunk and disorderly and never stop, and they wouldn't worry that Adama wouldn't love them anymore).
Seriously. What do we know about Zak? Very little. But Kara wanted him happy, and lied to make it happen. And that blew up in her face.
As atonement, she took the post with Adama, and she's been clinging to him like the family she didn't have ever since. When he betrays her about Earth, yep, she rebels. And then she comes back instead of staying on Caprica (and it's Anders' fault, btw, but I'm getting to that).
The fleet was at status quo for a while, and unless they're planning on retconning that Kara was running around frakking people and misbehaving, I'm pretty certain she didn't do much that was rebellious.
Tigh. Let's go back to the mini for a moment. Galactica's being turned into a museum, Kara is going to have to leave the one place she feels vaguely at home, and Tigh's being an ass. She doesn't care about her career, she doesn't care about her prospects, it's far easier to punch him and get thrown in the brig. The brig has to be somewhat familiar, as Lee notes that he's used to seeing her there -- here's a question, did she crave stability more after everything went to hell?
Back to recent history. Kara comes back, and all is A-OK. Dad still loves her, bratty brother still loves her, Mom's about to die, but still loves her.
Then Pegasus shows up, and Cain transfers her and Lee. And, yeah, Kara's a brat, but once Cain shows she values guts, Kara might actually kind of like it there. Aside from that, Pegasus appears to have a far more rigid military structure. Something Kara can rebel against and flail at.
And a bombshell. Dad wants her to kill the new bitch in town, someone Kara has a bit of respect for.
But she'll do it. Because she's loyal and Dad asked her.
Fast forward. Cain is dead, and Kara who kind of respected her (she did survive) now also has the knowledge that she could have been the one pulling the trigger. Hence, her speech at the funeral.
And then we have the pilots, as a whole. They're wild, they're crazy, they're all obnoxious. Kara just takes it one step further. She always has to be the best, y'know?
Sidenote: when is Kara not brought low by love? And I'm not talking just romantic, either. She cries when Adama hates her, she cries when he loves her... Romantically, she cries over Zak (once?). Non, she cries in the hospital during the Farm when hopped up on drugs. And here, she's breaking, and she's crying over Anders. But, er, not very much. (she cried in Kobol) -- okay, so, Kara actually cries.
This is a tangent. Kara lives life. She goes with her emotions, she feels things, and it's all there, right on the surface. (Except for anger, as someone pointed out, once). She's happy, she's sad, she's not ashamed to display what she feels. She's crying, she's raging, she's laughing, she's falling down drunk (Colonial Day? And how drunk was she when she fucked Baltar?).
Kara is all surface.
Anyway. Back to Kara and stability.
Anders. He's a decent guy, doesn't seem all that complicated, and he can keep up with her in the sack. He doesn't have a hundred little connections to her life that twist her up. And he's honest with her (as far as I can tell). And, scariest of all, he believes in her. He thinks she will succeed in her mission, hell, he thought so much of it he hid the arrow until she could leave.
That belief? It's a heady thing, especially when she doesn't know if Dad will forgive her (hey, if he doesn't, she has Samuel to fall back on).
So she makes her promise. In the heat of the moment--when she's clinging to reality, because she refuses to think about the farm--she promises to come back for him. Maybe even loves him a little (or a lot, after all, this is Kara, who grabs life by the horns and rides until she gets thrown, then gets back on and does it again). Certainly, she's infatuated with him.
She and Samuel did have an almost instant attraction, and he never pulled punches (they were both bruised after pyramid). He doesn't want her to be anything but herself, and he doesn't want her because she's Fleet, or a viper jockey, or whatever. He just wants Kara.
Right. Kara and stability.
Pegasus = rigid military control. Something Kara could rebel against. Cain respected her. Cain dead...
Cain dead leaves them all right back where they were: waiting for the Cylons to appear, stuck in a never-ending holding pattern.
It's enough to drive a sane person to drink.
Kara has always had the "drunken brawler" label, I think. It was an assumption we made long ago, and it's kind of weird to see it realized in full color on our screens. Although, she was a hell of a lot more controlled. No fighting, and she only beat herself up.
BTW? Hungover, Kara is still one HELL of a pilot.
I liked the idea that Kara knew the pilots who had died. Knew them all by callsign if not name. I think it's one of the things I've seen in fic a few times, actually. The litany of the dead. And it's one of the things that would make her a good CAG. It's also a detriment, as that guilt she's feeling for not being there to save them all might one day see her dead.
Hrm. Think that's everything I wanted to ramble on about.
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*tries again*
If they'd given us more of Anders, I could extrapolate better. Right now, the best I can come up with is that he's a decent guy, and if he were actually there, he'd be supportive and give her lots of sex. And probably keep her from drinking so much.
And you're right about the strictness. Yes. *inocherent and falling asleep*