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vague early-morning thoughts.
1. I've been having this issue when writing femslash recently: so much meta and such has passed my eyeballs I have the distinct worry that I'm fetishizing someone else's sexuality, and it's... making it difficult to finish things. (short things, like the Kara/Dee bit, don't require as much thought, but longer things? Oh yeah.)
A part of me wants to whine about this wrecking my ability to just produce femslash at the drop of a hat.
(ok, a large part of me; I hate second-guessing myself and not being able to write what I want to because I'm not a lesbian/haven't had the experience of coming out/don't know what it's like, and yes, I am whining right now. And frustrated.)
2. My feet are cold.
3. I am going to attempt to stay offline again, though I'm not taking Parker with me since lunch is only a half hour. The upside is that I'll be off an hour early.
4. Pants with no pockets suck.
5. Also? I'm really tired of writing het porn. Like. I think I've written so many orgasms that at this point I can repeat myself verbatim. Maybe it's time to start fading to black.
A part of me wants to whine about this wrecking my ability to just produce femslash at the drop of a hat.
(ok, a large part of me; I hate second-guessing myself and not being able to write what I want to because I'm not a lesbian/haven't had the experience of coming out/don't know what it's like, and yes, I am whining right now. And frustrated.)
2. My feet are cold.
3. I am going to attempt to stay offline again, though I'm not taking Parker with me since lunch is only a half hour. The upside is that I'll be off an hour early.
4. Pants with no pockets suck.
5. Also? I'm really tired of writing het porn. Like. I think I've written so many orgasms that at this point I can repeat myself verbatim. Maybe it's time to start fading to black.
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I think I've just hit a point where I've gone from "never thinking about it" to "thinking far too much and over-analyzing because it provides a convenient excuse not to face up to the fact that maybe I do sort of write femslash porn because it's hot" -- which, since I tend to malign boyslashers for the exact same thing, makes me more of a hypocrite than I like to cop to.
2. Fluffy socks may be my next answer.
5. BWAHAHAHAH. Yes, that. (though, sometimes, there's just mental images that spill out onto the page)