lyssie: (Kara not like this)
lyssie ([personal profile] lyssie) wrote2005-08-25 02:18 am

fic: bsg: Aching to be Free, 18+

Disclaimer: Not mine. Rating: 18+ Sex, language.
Genre: PWP, Angst.
Pairing: Kara/Lee
Length: 500+
Spoilers/Set: Season two, Home part 1.
Summary: Later, he'll remember that she wouldn't look at him.
Notes: er. This one's for [livejournal.com profile] stars_like_dust. Happy lateish birhday? Er. Title's from Depeche Mode's 'Halo'.

Aching to be Free
by ALC Punk!

Later, he'll remember that she wouldn't look at him.

"Kara." She ignores him, and it's a little too much; his hand closes on her arm, "Kara."

And she flinches.

"Oh. Sorry. Is there a no-touching rule now?" He can't help the sarcasm.

"Yeah, Lee. No touching."

"Unless I'm the frakkin' vice president, or some jock, right?"

Her head comes up, and he flashes back to a similar moment. Only this time, it's not the hangar deck, and she isn't puttering around a Cylon raider. But it's the same stance, except she's tired now, and he's wiser to her cues. He steps closer, practically breathing on her neck. If she wants to turn and hit him, she'll have to look at him.

"Frak you, Lee."

"All you have to do is ask, Kara. I'm sure it wouldn't be hard. Flash a little skin, maybe even Zarek--"

Her elbow slams into his chest, the air whooshing out of him as she turns. He tangles his arms around her, grabbing onto something he doesn't want to let go.

"Lee--"

"How come, Kara? Why them, and not me?"

"We are not having this conversation, Lee." But she doesn't try to break free.

Later, he'll remember that she never resisted.

"Why, Kara?"

"Frak you, Lee."

She can't seem to say anything else, and he doesn't care why, suddenly. So he kisses her instead of thinking, and she gasps against his lips. Then her hands are hanging onto his collar and her body is against his, and there's something broken in the sounds she's making.

His hands get her pants down and she drags him against the wall, pushing until his back is against it, the cold metal biting through his shirts. It's not enough, and he wastes no time getting her shirt up enough to feel her skin. Incautious fingers brush over stitches, and her jerks back, "Kara--?"

"Shut up, Lee." Her mouth claims his again, her hand goes down his pants.

And his brain short-circuits.

Later, he'll wonder if he left finger marks on her hips as he yanked her up against him and there are bruises on his back from slamming into the wall, so there must be some on hers.

She's slick under his fingers, the whimpers changing to soft demands as he lifts her up, turns and attempts to slide into her. He misses, and she laughs, the sound breaking off when he bites her shoulder. And then he's there, thrusting in, and she groans.

It's too fast and he wants to stop and go back ten minutes and start this right instead of wrong.

But he thinks that might not work out anyway.

Kara doesn't give him time, clenches around him and drives him over the edge.

"Off."

He's too shaky and post-orgasmic to realize until her pants are up and she grabs for her discarded boot that she's leaving. "Kara--"

"I'm sure," she says, moving past him before he can stop her, "we both have things to do."

"But--"

"Don't make it more than it was, Lee," she stops at the door, not looking back. "It's sex, just like you wanted." And then she's gone, leaving him standing there, wondering what, exactly, went wrong.

-f-

[identity profile] shadowserenity.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
Cold, Kara, cold. "Off."

Favourite line: It's too fast and he wants to stop and go back ten minutes and start this right instead of wrong.

This is a keeper, lyssie!
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 04:56 pm (UTC)(link)
*g* I've always thought of sex as kind of Kara's way of shoving emotions away, so being business-like about it in regards to Lee just fit.

Plus, I like my toys broken.

Thank you =)

[identity profile] sabaceanbabe.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 12:12 pm (UTC)(link)
*pets the yummy fic*

Poor Lee just never seems to get it right.
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 04:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not completely his fault, Kara isn't particularly open about her emotions. (it takes two people to tango in hell?) *g* Thanks.

[identity profile] sabaceanbabe.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
You're right. But what does that say about the scene in which Kara opened up a bit to Helo? Isn't he about the only person she's opened up to, that we know of?
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I think it says that Helo is someone she feels she can trust not to push. That he'll take what she says and not demand that she change or act on it, or become a better person. That he'll just add it to his store of Kara-Knowledge.... Er. Or something like that.

[identity profile] sabaceanbabe.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, Helo doesn't push, does he? He's a go-with-the-flow kinda guy, at least to a point.

And I think we may see his breaking point any day now.
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, yes we will. And it will be pretty. And I also think Kara not doing anything to stop them throwing Sharon out the airlock will come back to bite her on the ass.

[identity profile] amykay73.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Kara doesn't give him time, clenches around him and drives him over the edge.

Damn, she's good! Great quickie!
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
*coughs* Er, yes. Thank you =)
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[personal profile] woodface 2005-08-25 01:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Damn you! You made me like Kara/Lee smut. *scowls*
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
*eyes* I didn't do it on purpose, you know.
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[personal profile] woodface 2005-08-25 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*clings omg*

[identity profile] wishfulaces.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh yeah. Can so totally see that happening with those two.
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Especially if he won't stop pushing, she'd use it as a distraction... Thank you =)

[identity profile] wishfulaces.livejournal.com 2005-08-26 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
And he wouldn't stop pushing, 'cos sometimes he is a pretty single-minded bastard...
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-26 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Exactly. It's, like, he gets into his head the idea that he needs to ask Kara what she thinks about paisley curtains for the rec room, and then doesn't understand when she keeps telling him she doesn't care...

[identity profile] wishfulaces.livejournal.com 2005-08-27 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
...And then there's knock-down, drag-out fighting, or sex.

Hmmm.

[identity profile] ysrith.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah Lee/Kara sex angst. It's so wrong it is perfect! This is the way I see Lee/Kara, warped.

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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-25 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
They aren't healthy for each other, no. Especially when they're not communicating. (Lee and his father have the same problem, especially since Adama Sr doesn't even want to try seeing things from Lee's side, but then, he's the commander and he shouldn't have to, I suppose)

Thank you. =)
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[personal profile] morwen_peredhil 2005-08-25 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I can so see Kara doing something like that.. *pets beautiful, frakked-up OTP*
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[identity profile] lyssie.livejournal.com 2005-08-26 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
Sigh. She doesn't like emotions. Bah. *pats Kara and poor Lee* Thanks. =)