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Thoughts are swirling....
All through my head, I feel overloaded, in a way.
I guess I'll try itemising. Or day by day. Or...
When I got to school yesterday morning, I was five minutes late for my first class. I decided to cut it. Instead of listening to my prof talk about templates and flowcharts, I sat in the car and read the new Barbara Metzger book I'd picked up from the new Borders by Clayton.
Hopped out to head to the second class--plus I needed some Fritos and Coke, since I hadn't had breakfast yet.
Got the munchies and perched on the comfy chair down the hall from my classroom. Inside the room, some guy I didn't know was watching the CNN feed, but I wasn't paying much attention. The people in the offices across the hall from me were, too, but I still didn't pay much attention--read more of the book.
Three classmates showed up, and spotted a sign on our door I'd missed. The class was cancelled. I felt rather silly for having missed it, but resigned to having wasted the morning when I could've been sleeping.
But I needed to see if my zip disk was in the newsroom, plus make a monthly appearance and say hi to Trudy.
Walked in, "Have you heard?"
Me, "What?"
Trudy, "The World Trade Center is gone."
Keep in mind, this was about 11:15am, CST.
Me, "....Windows on the World is gone."
My first thought. Aren't I trivial? But I couldn't take it all in. Not really. I'd BEEN in that building. I'd stood on an upper floor and gazed out the windows at Manhatten! We'd been overcharged for somewhat crappy food...
Hell, I've even set a fic in there, iirc.
And it's all gone.
Trudy told me about it all. Anetra was there. Both accounts were slightly garbled, and I was trying NOT to hit Anetra. She was sitting at the computer with mIRC on it. I NEEDED to get on it. I needed to know if anyone I'd known was gone or hurt. If they'd had people lost.
I needed to know.
The bitch left fairly soon after that, and I glomped that computer. Was online in 30 seconds--coins was full.
I don't remember much--I mean, I look at the log I sent Kielle, and... I don't know how much of that I remember and how much I just feel surprise at.
We banded together.
A shocker, really. Because, even now, I can't put aside some of those petty jealousies and hatreds. Those little irritations...
I had to go to work, sadly, so I did.
I avoided the 45 channels all showing the same thing over and over, and tried to watch the 3 that were showing something that wasn't the Attack on America.
I did so because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it if I did.
I was right, too. I got home, hit the computer... and lost it.
But you noticed that last night, I'm sure.
So. Today. Didn't go to the newspaper meeting--big shocker.
On my way to work, decided I finally needed a new CD player. Mine's been broken for something like 2 years. Yay! No more borrowing my sisters'!
I was stuck between the purple one and the grey one, but my nipcheese spendthrift heart won out. I have the grey one, and it's smaller, but cute.
Took it to work, since I couldn't go home. Luckily, I'd crammed cds in for Tuesday in the newsroom (which I never got to listen to, incidently). So, listened to music with the tv OFF all night at work.
Danced for about the entire Supreme Beings of Leisure cd... Way cool stuff.
Was stiff later, though... More stretching, I think. And more dancing.
Played cards, read... Couldn't write anything.. danced. Full evening of boredom at work.
At least five people asked me about the newest news. "I haven't been watching." "Oh *look that says I must be crazy* Well, thanks anyway." "*in my head* You're not fucking welcome."
Am now home.
And just realised something. I'm getting a car for my birthday. It's a used car. But. I'm getting a car for my birthday
For the last three weeks, I've know. But it hasn't sunk in. I think I'm in shock, now. The numbness has gone byebye.
Chee. I'm getting a car of my very own!!
And on that note... I should go read email and stuff.
OH!!! And I'm going to Chicago this weekend. I'm going. Because I said I am. Not sure which mode of transport yet, though. More later. :)
I guess I'll try itemising. Or day by day. Or...
When I got to school yesterday morning, I was five minutes late for my first class. I decided to cut it. Instead of listening to my prof talk about templates and flowcharts, I sat in the car and read the new Barbara Metzger book I'd picked up from the new Borders by Clayton.
Hopped out to head to the second class--plus I needed some Fritos and Coke, since I hadn't had breakfast yet.
Got the munchies and perched on the comfy chair down the hall from my classroom. Inside the room, some guy I didn't know was watching the CNN feed, but I wasn't paying much attention. The people in the offices across the hall from me were, too, but I still didn't pay much attention--read more of the book.
Three classmates showed up, and spotted a sign on our door I'd missed. The class was cancelled. I felt rather silly for having missed it, but resigned to having wasted the morning when I could've been sleeping.
But I needed to see if my zip disk was in the newsroom, plus make a monthly appearance and say hi to Trudy.
Walked in, "Have you heard?"
Me, "What?"
Trudy, "The World Trade Center is gone."
Keep in mind, this was about 11:15am, CST.
Me, "....Windows on the World is gone."
My first thought. Aren't I trivial? But I couldn't take it all in. Not really. I'd BEEN in that building. I'd stood on an upper floor and gazed out the windows at Manhatten! We'd been overcharged for somewhat crappy food...
Hell, I've even set a fic in there, iirc.
And it's all gone.
Trudy told me about it all. Anetra was there. Both accounts were slightly garbled, and I was trying NOT to hit Anetra. She was sitting at the computer with mIRC on it. I NEEDED to get on it. I needed to know if anyone I'd known was gone or hurt. If they'd had people lost.
I needed to know.
The bitch left fairly soon after that, and I glomped that computer. Was online in 30 seconds--coins was full.
I don't remember much--I mean, I look at the log I sent Kielle, and... I don't know how much of that I remember and how much I just feel surprise at.
We banded together.
A shocker, really. Because, even now, I can't put aside some of those petty jealousies and hatreds. Those little irritations...
I had to go to work, sadly, so I did.
I avoided the 45 channels all showing the same thing over and over, and tried to watch the 3 that were showing something that wasn't the Attack on America.
I did so because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it if I did.
I was right, too. I got home, hit the computer... and lost it.
But you noticed that last night, I'm sure.
So. Today. Didn't go to the newspaper meeting--big shocker.
On my way to work, decided I finally needed a new CD player. Mine's been broken for something like 2 years. Yay! No more borrowing my sisters'!
I was stuck between the purple one and the grey one, but my nipcheese spendthrift heart won out. I have the grey one, and it's smaller, but cute.
Took it to work, since I couldn't go home. Luckily, I'd crammed cds in for Tuesday in the newsroom (which I never got to listen to, incidently). So, listened to music with the tv OFF all night at work.
Danced for about the entire Supreme Beings of Leisure cd... Way cool stuff.
Was stiff later, though... More stretching, I think. And more dancing.
Played cards, read... Couldn't write anything.. danced. Full evening of boredom at work.
At least five people asked me about the newest news. "I haven't been watching." "Oh *look that says I must be crazy* Well, thanks anyway." "*in my head* You're not fucking welcome."
Am now home.
And just realised something. I'm getting a car for my birthday. It's a used car. But. I'm getting a car for my birthday
For the last three weeks, I've know. But it hasn't sunk in. I think I'm in shock, now. The numbness has gone byebye.
Chee. I'm getting a car of my very own!!
And on that note... I should go read email and stuff.
OH!!! And I'm going to Chicago this weekend. I'm going. Because I said I am. Not sure which mode of transport yet, though. More later. :)