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*tries to be with the sense-making, re: Sam Anders' actions in 'Faith'*
Er, spoilers. Obvsly.
So, I mentioned this last night, but was way too sleepy to articulate it: Sam is living on borrowed time.
There's always been a sense that he's very fatalistic--he's survived two occupations and resistances. He's survived his marriage to Kara, and he's a Cylon. I tend to think he sometimes wakes up and goes why am I not dead yet?
And with Kara, he... he would never consider betraying her. Even now, when she's insane and uncertain, he can't conceive of it. She saved his life. She gave him hope that there was more to survival than just endless recons and pointless raids. She was coming back for him. And then, frak, but she did it. On top of that, he's always believed in her: she can take the arrow and find Earth. It was a simple concept, and he believed in it.
He believes she can find Earth now. He also believes she'll kill him if she finds out he's a Cylon.
And then everyone mutinies. Sam might only half-believe Leoben, but Kara thinks they need to go there. And Sam thinks they need the alliance. He's desperate to prove that humans and Cylons CAN co-exist, if only because then Sam himself isn't totally irredeemable. (fatalistic or not, if he dies, does his soul go to the Gods, or do machines not have souls?)
He tries reason, tries pointing out that this is wrong, that Adama isn't going to be so kind--
Hell, he doesn't even know what Adama will do, but he's sure of one thing: the opportunity to save the Cylons, to start this movement towards an alliance, to maybe find another clue towards Earth is slipping away.
They're not listening, make them listen.
I don't think Gaeta had any clue that Sam had pulled his side-arm. I don't think the others noticed, either.
At this point, the only thing that will make them listen is something big, something shocking.
So Sam shoots him. In that moment, all that matters is getting them to listen. Sam doesn't care if he gets shot (he never even tries to go for cover), he doesn't care (at that moment) what they think of him, he just wants to stop the jump before it can happen.
It's not a cold-blooded decision, it's not a happy one, and he regrets it ten seconds later.
As a side note: does anyone have any idea how long Sam's been awake? He was out on a long-ass recon last week and came back and still has not slept. They were gone 15 hours, so that's on top of what was probably an eight-hour recon, and another four or five hours awake as they beat up Leoben and locked down the ship and--he's been awake one hell of a long time, and so has everyone else.
Sleep deprivation does bad things to your logic abilities.
Anyway.
They're not listening, make them listen.
How do I make them listen?
Shoot someone.
Gaeta's going to jump us.
Stop him.
It's funny to me that Helo was telling the marines to stand down--and Seelix, too. Seelix, would you actually have shot Sam? Sgt. Mathias would have. She's already held Sam at gunpoint before (funny, how Sam always gets in the most trouble when his loyalty to Kara is put to the test). If Lee had given the order, back on the algae planet, she would have shot him.
Sigh. Now I want to know what kind of fall-out Sam's going to get for shooting Gaeta. Or, better yet, just a nice alone-time scene with him and Kara, where he worries she'll figure him out.
Ooo ooh, I'm reminded, Sam mentioned having seen lots of people die before--with the Eight. I maintain Sam has also been the hand of mercy for any people on Caprica he encountered that weren't going to survive due to radiation poisoning.
So, I mentioned this last night, but was way too sleepy to articulate it: Sam is living on borrowed time.
There's always been a sense that he's very fatalistic--he's survived two occupations and resistances. He's survived his marriage to Kara, and he's a Cylon. I tend to think he sometimes wakes up and goes why am I not dead yet?
And with Kara, he... he would never consider betraying her. Even now, when she's insane and uncertain, he can't conceive of it. She saved his life. She gave him hope that there was more to survival than just endless recons and pointless raids. She was coming back for him. And then, frak, but she did it. On top of that, he's always believed in her: she can take the arrow and find Earth. It was a simple concept, and he believed in it.
He believes she can find Earth now. He also believes she'll kill him if she finds out he's a Cylon.
And then everyone mutinies. Sam might only half-believe Leoben, but Kara thinks they need to go there. And Sam thinks they need the alliance. He's desperate to prove that humans and Cylons CAN co-exist, if only because then Sam himself isn't totally irredeemable. (fatalistic or not, if he dies, does his soul go to the Gods, or do machines not have souls?)
He tries reason, tries pointing out that this is wrong, that Adama isn't going to be so kind--
Hell, he doesn't even know what Adama will do, but he's sure of one thing: the opportunity to save the Cylons, to start this movement towards an alliance, to maybe find another clue towards Earth is slipping away.
They're not listening, make them listen.
I don't think Gaeta had any clue that Sam had pulled his side-arm. I don't think the others noticed, either.
At this point, the only thing that will make them listen is something big, something shocking.
So Sam shoots him. In that moment, all that matters is getting them to listen. Sam doesn't care if he gets shot (he never even tries to go for cover), he doesn't care (at that moment) what they think of him, he just wants to stop the jump before it can happen.
It's not a cold-blooded decision, it's not a happy one, and he regrets it ten seconds later.
As a side note: does anyone have any idea how long Sam's been awake? He was out on a long-ass recon last week and came back and still has not slept. They were gone 15 hours, so that's on top of what was probably an eight-hour recon, and another four or five hours awake as they beat up Leoben and locked down the ship and--he's been awake one hell of a long time, and so has everyone else.
Sleep deprivation does bad things to your logic abilities.
Anyway.
They're not listening, make them listen.
How do I make them listen?
Shoot someone.
Gaeta's going to jump us.
Stop him.
It's funny to me that Helo was telling the marines to stand down--and Seelix, too. Seelix, would you actually have shot Sam? Sgt. Mathias would have. She's already held Sam at gunpoint before (funny, how Sam always gets in the most trouble when his loyalty to Kara is put to the test). If Lee had given the order, back on the algae planet, she would have shot him.
Sigh. Now I want to know what kind of fall-out Sam's going to get for shooting Gaeta. Or, better yet, just a nice alone-time scene with him and Kara, where he worries she'll figure him out.
Ooo ooh, I'm reminded, Sam mentioned having seen lots of people die before--with the Eight. I maintain Sam has also been the hand of mercy for any people on Caprica he encountered that weren't going to survive due to radiation poisoning.